Tuesday, August 17, 2010

rindu tak kesampaian


seperti rindu aku pada matahari
pada dingin ilalang
pada desiran embun ketika subuh membuka mata
dan ketika riuh suara hening menghentak bumi
getarnya halus,.. membelai jernih masuk sampai keulu hati


ah,... mengupasnya membuat mata ini perih
bahkan lidahku pun tak sanggup menepi

wangi kesturi kulit mu
lembutnya hujan di matamu
silaunya sapuan derai tawamu

begitu dalamnya duniaku tentangmu

kau tau ?, ..
hari ini hujan muram dibalik terik
aku meringkuk haus diujung dipanku yang sunyi
pintuku pun tak sejentikpun kau reguk

kau tau ?,..
bumi berwarna biru kemarau hari ini
tak sepenggal air menetes diatasnya

telah habis ia mengalir
merangkak dalam tangisanku yang durja
meratap habis dalam palung palung hatiku yang mendadak hampa

membayangkan ratusan mil tergerai
dan puluhan surga kemarin yang mendadak membuat nafasku sesak

kau tau ?..
hari ini aku maratap puluhan tembok putih yang berlumut
berharap masih ada untaian cerita yang akan bersambut dibaliknya
dan memecah kaca-kaca yang tersekat pekat diantara kita

kau..

sedang apakah kau disana?
samar-samar tertawa kah kau disana?
siapakah yang bersembunyi dibalik cadar mimpimu tadi malam?
masih kau simpan aku kah disana ?
rindu kah kau akan duri di jemariku ?
masih kah kau simpan aku dibalik kelopakmu?

kau tau ?
mereka menghantuiku seperti malam menghantui siang..
siang dan malam, malam dan siang...dan terus bergantian

kau..
sedang apakah kau disana?




*setelah sekian lama kerongkongan ini tercekat, akhirnya aku kembali memuntahkan karya :)


Tuesday, March 02, 2010

grateful

I wake up this morning and inspired:..
" we couldnt never get enough of TIME, LOVE, MONEY and our selves,... but Gratitude IS the one small thing that will make us stop.." after i wrote this note...the second thought come to mind is.., okay im going to write down at least 10 things that i am grateful off today.... here are the chronological process in my mind when im processing it in tweeter mode :D

tryin to write 10 thing i am grateful of , ah this should be easy..
i'm tryin to be honest here...
am i grateful for the air and being alive? ah not really,.. i hardly notice my air, being alive ? geez i dont mind being alive but i dont mind being dead either hehehe...
but i love my mr.sun so im going to be grateful for his existence.., okay one...
two,..  i'm listening to this funny morning program on one of local radio station, laughing.. really make my day...
three, ... okay, i woke up healthy, two weeks ago i got typhoid so two weeks ago i woke up in agony of fever being unable to eat.. i love being healthy..
four,.. hmm okay this strarts getting tougher..  well i love my bed sooo much in Bali.. thank god for my comfy bed and comfy pillow ..
five, .. well i feel content, i got everything i need fulfilled..
six, tryin to smile even in rainy days....
seven,.... i couldnt think another thing to be grateful of.. honestly....
so ask all my friend,.. what kind of stuff they are mostly be grateful of this morning..

i just realized how often i was being grateful in the morning...
hardly...
 

 

Friday, January 15, 2010

waktunya istirahat

menapak kaki bersambut bulan
menjejak napas dan bersembunyi dibalik keributan
menghela esok
terikat belati dibelakang kemarau masa lalu
aku letih mengais mimpi
sumpah.. aku letih..
tak bisakah oh wahai penggeliat nafs
peradu kasih ku..
tak bisakah kau biarkan aku istirahat??
terdiam disudut dingin ku yang kosong
berbalut kafan dengan secarik kertas kosong
ohh... tak bisakah kau biarkan aku beristirahat
sebentaarrr saja...
dan dengan pasrah membiarkan kertas buram ku diperawani pena putih ?
tak bisa kah ?
please??

kingdom of you

i'm building my kingdom of you
within me..
summon all your kings
they shall depraved in silence
upon side of my dying tree
with their famish laughter of yesterday death
and tomorrow grieve

i will not let any cloud resting
nor any wind whispering
i will let thee
perishing..

my ocean shall be green and the foot sand shall be blue
the sky will be pink with a stroke of blue

and no thoughts can touch it
and no voice can chant it

i will let thee
be free.. from my own, them, us, ...
you see...
in my kingdom of you is free..

even from the reality of you..