Monday, December 29, 2008

aching

sedated in a hand full thoughts
feels like reincarnate above million of death
dying under hundred layer image of you
shuttered in one drip of tears

i'm aching in starvation of you...

Thursday, December 18, 2008

mystic kiss

i count the days that shall pass
without the second minute slips
feels like eternity in shallow sinking ship
that slowly drain in mystic kiss

remember me.
please..

Saturday, December 13, 2008

now

Let me perish under your blanket of eyes

Let me return on to your rising breast of rays..

I will let you breath me within

And moved me across.. above and beyond

Uninspired me..... distilled me...

Suffer me.. i don't care..

Just be inside me

now..

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

a sleep out

a twist of sorrow and a pint of joy
a cup of despair and the swirl of lingering twisted mind
swinging from one mood to another and yet it still reminisce
hanging under a darken sky of faith

uplift me..from the center of my waist
unbind me..from the holocaust factory
scratching thoughts in my freaking head for zillion of century

i need a sleep out...

just a quite one

please?

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

just keep swimming...

im drunk

distant to sacred sky

trust me

mind nothing else

trust me

i will never let you ...you know..

drowning down

diminished in magenta night

and parish in wild ocean of hopes, thoughts and dreams..

i see your eyes now....

in Grey breeze with a tip of emtyness in it..

can i touch it?

can i kiss it?

can i keep your hand...?

underwater.. i dont care..

can i capture your smile

above surface.. i dont mind

can i just keep you lock out in my empty space

for a twist of time...

maybe just for today

maybe forever, .....

who knows..

its not only in your dream

you see..

believe me..

Thursday, August 14, 2008

mirror

have you ever watch your self in the mirror lately?
and gaze deeply in to your endless eyes?
have you forgive your self lately?
and gaze lovingly into your heart?
have you heard what your self have been telling you?


void

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

happiness so close

leave me...
i wanna eat silence for a while
and drink a jar of loneliness
under the afternoon rays of sadness
among unbearable shadows of lies
in heavenly edgeless eyes
behind million layered curtain mist of truth
under million stacked of boredom
and freedom

and maybe, ..just maybe
on those gap in concealed
between grief and regrets
vanity in veil
i ll reminisce

happiness so close
happiness so close
happiness so close
...

bisu:mute

bisu,.. aku ingin menutup rapat katup celah bersemayam lidah
dan menjahit bibir-bibir yang sudah mulai kisut
letih aku berucap...
serapah tak penting yang meracau kacau......

jengah,.. aku mendengar diriku sendiri
membabibuta, muntah serapah dengan ratusan kesombongan
bersembunyi dibalik tamborin-tamborin ke-seolahan...
capek,..

Monday, July 07, 2008

here..

here i am
depraved among trees
and lost between rays

fading...
ive lost my self
behind thin clouds
communing with million raindrops

here i am
ive bound my self
to the ground of a lucid dream
bow to the sky
humming gracefully in between
you me and everybody
he , her and them
they, ...we and mine
today, yesterday, and before...

and here i am
un-aware and confused
un-prepared
yet,.. im well prepared

between million changes that about to come....

beware..
coz here i am
i am near..
nor far
i am
here...



sumur kebahagiaan

konon, disebuah negeri antah berantah... telah ditemukan sebuah sumur takberdasar
konon, dalam sumur itu mengalir sumber-sumber kebahagiaan...
lalu,.. berbondong2 seluruh musafir dari penjuru semesta bertarawikh menuju sumur itu
dan sudi menempatkan diri mereka dalam antrian yang super panjang dibawah alunan
suling matahari yang melengking pekat
bercampur aroma nafsu yang mendesah
dan ketika hadir dihadapan mereka, seonggok susun bata berbentuk rembulan
dengan kegelapan bak secangkir kematian
dan dihiaskan dengan ramai nan cantik dengan ribuan harapan..
maka kemudian para musafir itu mulai menimba sang sumur....
semakin jauh tali mencoba menggapai... tak jua sang tempayan menapak
sampai akhirnya utasan tali itu pun habis....
beribu musafir mencoba dengan untaian yang lebih panjang, namun tak ada satu lengan pun yang mampu menggapai permukaannya...
banyak juga yang kecewa dan putus asa
yang tertawa terbahak2
yang menangis, entah bahagia tercerahkan atau keterpurukan
begitulah sang sumur sumber kebahagiaan,...
tak mungkin kita menimbanya, wong... endless kok.. walaupun tali sepanjang nyawa pun tak akan sanggup menyentuh permukaannya..
tak mungkin kita mereguknya,.. wong ndak ada isinya...
tapi banyak juga yang tertawa menjalaninya...
karena didapatinya,.. efortless... bottomless, clueless, etc....
"lucu kalo dipikir2... wong masih konon tapi dijabanin juga..., jadi kalo akhirnya ga mendapati apa2 yah.. bagaimana mau marah dan putus asa, namanya juga konon..."
ada juga yg marah2..
"sial,.. aku habis dijadikan bahan becanda ini sih... sudah ngantri, panas,.. ehh... ndak dapet apa2 juga.."
apapun tanggapan para musafir yg tertipu ini, sumur itu tetaplah "menyumur.." tetap saja tak berujung, tetap saja kosong, melompong, tetap saja bergaung...

begitulah, sumur kebahagiaan
konon,... memang ga ada isinya....
begitulah sumur kebahagiaan, bila kita timba mani-nya...
blanko,.. kita ga akan menemukan apa2....
konon....

Sunday, May 25, 2008

growing up is hard to do....

where are you?

im here....

where are you?

im here...

where are you?

im here,... you just couldnt feel me..

why are you leaving?

im not..

why are you leaving?

im not....

why are you leaving?

listen,.. im not. im right here. im just growing up....
changing. evolving. moving. everything..... but im staying...

where are you?

mom....
im here....