echo

petals...
bathe with sunrays
i'm inspired
by the foot steps of million angels marching
echoing freedom
fading between layers of churches, masjid, and synagogues..
vaporizing between laughter of million human smiles

enthusiasm me..
sink me in down to your sunny lullaby
and won me in.. on your hermit fight

my zahir

Indeed, freeing your self from an obsession is dreadful, painful, etc.. but one thing that i've learn that the more you eager to be free from him, the more you wanted to forgive and forget him, the deeper he will go sinking below your subconscious .. maybe all we have to do is simply stay still, and just embrace it, enjoy it while its still hot hehe.. :P watch him still, and ... being aware that we might need this experience and this experience will simply pass us by when the time is come, when we.. consciously and full of love letting them pass.. and i know its NOT easy... after all our emotion have a very powerful defense system.
God knows why but when a zahir of mine come to sight all i have to do is walk, probably a metaphor of trying to "walk"-away/running etc.. but i just realized that when our body is physically down or tired or our body is simply being focused to some gestures, suddenly the stillness come to sight under the rain of lights, and perishing all dark mist aside, leaving only the zahir it self, standing still in the center of nothing-ness waiting to be freed. And finally the true battle appear, will i free him away or will i let him stay another night under my starry sky..just like what i have did many times. Pffeww....